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Seems like I haven't post in forever, huh? *sigh*
I'm just tired of everything nowadays, it seems. I don't feel like school's worth it and a whole bunch of other shit.... All my "friends" at school bore me and some of them hate me (I can tell). They make fun of me behind my back and everything... I know they do -- I'm not naive (sp?) enough to think that they laugh at me because I said something funny or whatever. And it's been buggin' me.... pisses me off too much. No one really likes me at school -- I know it -- and it fuckin' hate it. School's suppose to be a "safe" place with friends and all that to help you get through the day and all that shit. Well, it doesn't feel "safe" to me and there are no friends to take comfort in... Like I said, everyone pisses me off. Even the people I hang with... they all ignore me and everything... No one seems to be interested in what I like.... I'm just tired of it all....
Everyone disregards what I say and believe... they [semi] dis me for liking for this or thinking that. Semi cause they don't dis me personally, just my opinions and stuff.... Like my editorial -- I had to do an editorial for English class. My editorial was on... HOMOSEXUALS. Who was willing to read it besides the teacher? Practically no one. Once I gave them the paper, and they saw the word HOMOSEXUAL, they gave it back. Or they read the first paragraph and got to my opinion about it and was like, nevermind -- not reading it anymore. -_- Here's the editorial for the curious....
Homosexual Themes on Television
I can count the people who read it willingly... Let's see... the first was the teacher, obviously. She thought it was a great topic. Then the first person my age was.... CJ -- when the teach was passing them back to us to make corrections, he asked what mine was about, and I gave it to him -- he actually read it. The next person was.... kinda Ron. Kinda cause I told him to read mine and he was like, okay but only got through half before the bell rang. Then the next day Ashley and Salassee (sp?) read it and corrected it ("on" does NOT equal "of", lol), then Saul took it from me, saying he still needed to read mine [I read his before]. He was way cool about the topic and even gave me some tips, though I was too busy to add them in. =/ Then I gave it to Ron, saying he didn't finish it yet. He was like, "OH" and took it and read it. Also way cool about it, which was good. ^_^ And.... I semi made Tony read it -- he wanted to read it, but he saw the title and was like... "oh..." but he still read it, but not that willingly. So that's a total of, what, seven people out of the whole class? And of course I forced about three people to read it, but.... it's not the same as having someone read my work because they WANT to...
So many people blanched at the mention of the word homosexual... so many people freaked out when I told them I was for it... So many people that I believed wouldn't judge because of the topic and read my paper regardless... So many wrong assumptions.. *sigh* So many people I didn't believe were homophobic... I thought they'd take it better -- at least read it regardless. Damn....
It just pisses me off so much that all them people who had a problem with homosexuals only had a problem with gay males. No problem with girls getting it on with other girls, but totally FREAKED at guy with guys. Stupid hypocrites! >_< Piss me off more than anything! Especially the girls! It's okay for us females to be together, but not guys?! I can kinda understand that from the guys, but the same opinions from the girls?! I'm ashamed have thought they would be okay with it all.... "...But guys with other guys... *makes a face* It's just *shivers* and... YUCK!" was the generally reaction. -_- Man... they need to study their history a bit more cause I know the Greeks/Romans practiced homosexuality and so did samurais... *sigh* And then there's the fact that many famous people are/were gay... can't think of any now, but you know it's true!
Well, it's over now, but it still bugs me.... We're gonna start poetry next so... I wish we got to do literature, instead of all those writings (features articles and such). Learned nothing this year and didn't read anything in class. Not that I wanna READ anything with the class together, but still! It's better that way! We didn't get to do Shakespeare! And that's a big deal to me cause doesn't everyone have to do Shakespeare in high school?! *sigh* Reading's better than all this shit we've done this year. =/ I like to read, jeez. School's the only time I actually make myself read books nowadays.. fan-fiction's what I like now, but books are GREAT! I mean, I need to know what's been written for when I write a book. Read the popular ones and see the what people like about it to make my book as good as the popular ones, right? *sigh*
I hate Liliana... She's a fucking bitch! Her little Mexican groupie have been making fun of me lately... and to think I used to hang with them.... *sigh* Pissed off at them! And Liliana more cause I gotta finish our house by myself! >_< But then again, I did almost the whole house by myself. It's just.. it's due finished or not this Friday and it's half our final grade. I'm barely finished with ONE truss for the roof, so... I TOTALLY NEED TO FINISH THIS! *frustrated*
Everyone's pissing me off! >_< Right now (4:55), my brother's being a jackass to my sister who has to finish her Civil War paper... And I just wanna beat the shit outta him! I mean, he's been buggin' me the whole day, but damn! He was going mess up everything she's typed so far! >_< He's so picky and shit! I want this, I want that! >_< What a bitch! UGH!
DAMN! Why do I have so many troubles?! And this whole week I couldn't watch any anime 'cause I watch it with my sister and she's been busy with the whole Civil War thing... Nothing to help me keep away the problems I've been suffering through.... *sigh* My life's so fucked up....
So much homework I've had too... and tests.... *sigh* DAMN! Why so much work at the end of the year?! >_< Only four more weeks... just four more weeks... I hope I can survive without killing anyone... Not lying about that either.... I wanna kill so many people and I should make that "killer" reputation ring true. *evil smirk*
I got invited to the Kearny awards assembly (or at least, that's what it appears to be), but it's after school. >_< Not right after school either. It's on Thursday, May 29, 2003 @ 3:00. School ends at 2:15. I have 45 minutes to do nothing. -_- And it better end at 3:30 so I can catch the 3:30 bus! 'Cause I ain't taking the 5:30 one. *rolls eyes*
Well, I've realized I haven't updated my websites in two months... so much for that updating at least every two weeks, huh? It's just, with all these problems to deal with, school, and who knows what else, there's no time to actually sit and update my websites. BUT I will get to doing it soon. Maybe next week. And I'll REALLY do the at least once every two weeks.
And I WILL post more often after this.. It's just been a bad week and all that... You know you have those days... I'm trying to get though it all though, so... We'll see....
DAMN that was a long ass post... But I had lots to say... A week's worth that I didn't even really mention, so... Whatever. I'm gonna go...
~Remula
I'm just tired of everything nowadays, it seems. I don't feel like school's worth it and a whole bunch of other shit.... All my "friends" at school bore me and some of them hate me (I can tell). They make fun of me behind my back and everything... I know they do -- I'm not naive (sp?) enough to think that they laugh at me because I said something funny or whatever. And it's been buggin' me.... pisses me off too much. No one really likes me at school -- I know it -- and it fuckin' hate it. School's suppose to be a "safe" place with friends and all that to help you get through the day and all that shit. Well, it doesn't feel "safe" to me and there are no friends to take comfort in... Like I said, everyone pisses me off. Even the people I hang with... they all ignore me and everything... No one seems to be interested in what I like.... I'm just tired of it all....
Everyone disregards what I say and believe... they [semi] dis me for liking for this or thinking that. Semi cause they don't dis me personally, just my opinions and stuff.... Like my editorial -- I had to do an editorial for English class. My editorial was on... HOMOSEXUALS. Who was willing to read it besides the teacher? Practically no one. Once I gave them the paper, and they saw the word HOMOSEXUAL, they gave it back. Or they read the first paragraph and got to my opinion about it and was like, nevermind -- not reading it anymore. -_- Here's the editorial for the curious....
Homosexual Themes on Television
I can count the people who read it willingly... Let's see... the first was the teacher, obviously. She thought it was a great topic. Then the first person my age was.... CJ -- when the teach was passing them back to us to make corrections, he asked what mine was about, and I gave it to him -- he actually read it. The next person was.... kinda Ron. Kinda cause I told him to read mine and he was like, okay but only got through half before the bell rang. Then the next day Ashley and Salassee (sp?) read it and corrected it ("on" does NOT equal "of", lol), then Saul took it from me, saying he still needed to read mine [I read his before]. He was way cool about the topic and even gave me some tips, though I was too busy to add them in. =/ Then I gave it to Ron, saying he didn't finish it yet. He was like, "OH" and took it and read it. Also way cool about it, which was good. ^_^ And.... I semi made Tony read it -- he wanted to read it, but he saw the title and was like... "oh..." but he still read it, but not that willingly. So that's a total of, what, seven people out of the whole class? And of course I forced about three people to read it, but.... it's not the same as having someone read my work because they WANT to...
So many people blanched at the mention of the word homosexual... so many people freaked out when I told them I was for it... So many people that I believed wouldn't judge because of the topic and read my paper regardless... So many wrong assumptions.. *sigh* So many people I didn't believe were homophobic... I thought they'd take it better -- at least read it regardless. Damn....
It just pisses me off so much that all them people who had a problem with homosexuals only had a problem with gay males. No problem with girls getting it on with other girls, but totally FREAKED at guy with guys. Stupid hypocrites! >_< Piss me off more than anything! Especially the girls! It's okay for us females to be together, but not guys?! I can kinda understand that from the guys, but the same opinions from the girls?! I'm ashamed have thought they would be okay with it all.... "...But guys with other guys... *makes a face* It's just *shivers* and... YUCK!" was the generally reaction. -_- Man... they need to study their history a bit more cause I know the Greeks/Romans practiced homosexuality and so did samurais... *sigh* And then there's the fact that many famous people are/were gay... can't think of any now, but you know it's true!
Well, it's over now, but it still bugs me.... We're gonna start poetry next so... I wish we got to do literature, instead of all those writings (features articles and such). Learned nothing this year and didn't read anything in class. Not that I wanna READ anything with the class together, but still! It's better that way! We didn't get to do Shakespeare! And that's a big deal to me cause doesn't everyone have to do Shakespeare in high school?! *sigh* Reading's better than all this shit we've done this year. =/ I like to read, jeez. School's the only time I actually make myself read books nowadays.. fan-fiction's what I like now, but books are GREAT! I mean, I need to know what's been written for when I write a book. Read the popular ones and see the what people like about it to make my book as good as the popular ones, right? *sigh*
I hate Liliana... She's a fucking bitch! Her little Mexican groupie have been making fun of me lately... and to think I used to hang with them.... *sigh* Pissed off at them! And Liliana more cause I gotta finish our house by myself! >_< But then again, I did almost the whole house by myself. It's just.. it's due finished or not this Friday and it's half our final grade. I'm barely finished with ONE truss for the roof, so... I TOTALLY NEED TO FINISH THIS! *frustrated*
Everyone's pissing me off! >_< Right now (4:55), my brother's being a jackass to my sister who has to finish her Civil War paper... And I just wanna beat the shit outta him! I mean, he's been buggin' me the whole day, but damn! He was going mess up everything she's typed so far! >_< He's so picky and shit! I want this, I want that! >_< What a bitch! UGH!
DAMN! Why do I have so many troubles?! And this whole week I couldn't watch any anime 'cause I watch it with my sister and she's been busy with the whole Civil War thing... Nothing to help me keep away the problems I've been suffering through.... *sigh* My life's so fucked up....
So much homework I've had too... and tests.... *sigh* DAMN! Why so much work at the end of the year?! >_< Only four more weeks... just four more weeks... I hope I can survive without killing anyone... Not lying about that either.... I wanna kill so many people and I should make that "killer" reputation ring true. *evil smirk*
I got invited to the Kearny awards assembly (or at least, that's what it appears to be), but it's after school. >_< Not right after school either. It's on Thursday, May 29, 2003 @ 3:00. School ends at 2:15. I have 45 minutes to do nothing. -_- And it better end at 3:30 so I can catch the 3:30 bus! 'Cause I ain't taking the 5:30 one. *rolls eyes*
Well, I've realized I haven't updated my websites in two months... so much for that updating at least every two weeks, huh? It's just, with all these problems to deal with, school, and who knows what else, there's no time to actually sit and update my websites. BUT I will get to doing it soon. Maybe next week. And I'll REALLY do the at least once every two weeks.
And I WILL post more often after this.. It's just been a bad week and all that... You know you have those days... I'm trying to get though it all though, so... We'll see....
DAMN that was a long ass post... But I had lots to say... A week's worth that I didn't even really mention, so... Whatever. I'm gonna go...
~Remula
