So it's kinda boring when there weren't performances. XP But yeah... Brendon's eyes were closed during basically the whole time he was singing Lying. =( He opened his eyes when he was at the keyboard, but yeah.. And during I Write Sins, he had his eyes open a little more, but not really. And Ryan was like that too most of the time. What dorks. XP

Three more hours until the new year for me. XP

~Remula

I couldn't really sleep that well last night.. kinda half away, half asleep kinda thing. I dunno.. Got up finally around 7:30.. Got ready and then went on the computer for a little, then at 8:20, left with three other girls from my suite to walk to school. Got there and ate breakfast, then went to the Rec to have.. a welcome assembly type thing. I don't know. It was very pep rally like -- there was a band, stunt team, dance team, cheering, etc... Yeah. After that, had to go outside and meet with our groups. Finally found them and we just played a bunch of games.. Yeah. Kinda boring. After that, went to get lunch around 11:30. Then after that, had a break where I got kinda lost trying to get back to Stenner Glen. Got there eventually and went to the office to sign some stuff and get my meal card picture taken and my laundry card. $2.00 every load basically since it's $1.50/wash and $.50/dry.

After that, it was already 12:50 and I was suppose to meet my group, but I was just starting to walk back to campus. Instead of meeting where we were suppose to, just went to the bowling alley 'cause that's what we were doing at 1:00. Got there exactly at 1:00, right before they were about to call people, so yeah. Was there, got shoes, went to bowl. I sucked ass. I think I had the lowest score, haha. The only up side to it, of course, was when it was my second turn up, "But It's Better If You Do" started playing, so yeah. My highlight, haha. After that, it was about 2:15 or whatever and just walked around the bookstore and talked to bobbleheadvi since I didn't have time to go back to SG. Meet back with the group at 2:50-ish and then we went on a tour of the school. Pretty boring.. Got a rubber duck and some stuff from the health center.. And a water bottle thing. XP

After the tour, it was about 4:30 and we went to the VG Cafe to get dinner. Took forever to get food.. The only highlight to that was that "Miss Murder" was playing when we first came in. Too bad more of my type of music wasn't playing 'cause that would have improved the wait, ya know? Ate a chicken sandwich and mac n' cheese. BLEH! After that, went back to SG and talked to aznearthdragon and bobbleheadvi on the way. Went on the computer a little and talked to aznearthdragon and then at 6:20, was suppose to meet up with the group, but left late, so yeah.. It was 6:20 when I was out of the building and walking to campus. Got there ten minutes later and then just waited. Later, moved to a parking lot near some type of field.. I dunno what.. Soccer, I guess? Yeah.. Waited in the parking lot forever just playing games and stuff. Finally, at 7:00, started going into the field and yeah.. There was all the WOWees there and it was hella packed. x_x Played a bunch of dumb games and then finally, I left around 9:30 and it was still going. Walked with a girl I met back to SG and saw that there was a meeting today. x_x Good thning it seemed to be just starting or whatever, even though it was suppose to be an hour earlier. So.. sat through that, where the RA just talked about the rules and stuff.. Then went to check our mail and then came back.

I was about to shower, but then the guys from next door came over and yeah.. That's, like, void now. I'm not gonna go with them still here.. I think I'll just change and brush my teeth and just sleep, I guess.. EWW, but yeah. Wash my face, I guess. I don't know. I can't take a shower with a bunch of guys around. Just not comfortable with it, since there aren't any locks on the bathroom doors, ya know? At least at Calc Camp, there was a lock.. BLEH!

Gosh, I'm kinda tired.. I think I heard two of the girls saying that that they had to leave at 8:00 tomorrow? I don't have to go 'til 9:00, so I guess I'll have some freetime to do it tomorrow morning, but it's kinda pointless.. 'cause yeah. Just gonna get all sweaty and dirty from walking around downtown and stuff.. *sigh* BLEH!

Well, yeah.. that's all I have to say for now.. Laterz.

~Remula

So I had to change my resolution on my desktop ((well, it won't be mine for much longer, but yeah...)) 'cause when I was installing Adobe Creative Suite, it said the resolution has to be at least 1024 x 768 and I had 800 x 600, so yeah.. My poor Shuichi wallpaper that I've had for at least.. five years or whatever.. ;_; I can't use him anymore. I'm mourning, don't you know.. =/

So yeah.. I had to go in search of a wallpaper.. I ended up taking the Panic! At The Disco @ the VMAs one from here -- made by tookitanyway 'cause I remember seeing those a few days ago, haha. I really liked the green Ryan one with the Lying lyrics, but yeah.. I'm used to the icons being on the left and I can't accommodate for a wallpaper, you know. XP

But yeah.. poor Shuichi.. ;_;

~Remula

So last night, before we went to sleep, me and aznearthdragon were discussing the Pete Wentz and Ashlee Simpson thing. XD And we came up with a little story thing. Mwhahahahah! Basically..

Ashlee Simpson and Pete Wentz are in a club thing and Ashlee's giving Pete Wentz a lap dance -- we were thinking "But It's Better If You Do" ((Panic! At The Disco)) kinda set up or whatever. And then she's like, serenading Pete Wentz with "Love" and The Little Mermaid characters there singing back-up. Then Ashlee's vocal coach pops up ((didn't know their name or gender, so we called them "Shimmer" [woot! Young Americans reference, hahahah!]))and is like, "She can't sing!" Then, for some reason, the rest of Fall Out Boy is there and Ashlee's like, "I danced with your boyfriend!" and Patrick just happens to be RIGHT THERE and then he's like, "Oh no she didn't!~" And yeah. We were trying so hard not to laugh really loud and stuff.

There was also mentions to Ashlee covering "Dance, Dance" ==> "Why don't you show me a little bit of spine you've been saving for his mattress, L.O. L.O. L.O. V.E." Mwhahahahahah!~ Yeah. We're dorks.

So yeah.. Today, during aznearthdragon's fourth period, since it's still free until the end of the week, she drew a lovely picture, illustrating our little.. scenerio. XD It's lovely, hahahhaha. That's why I scanned the picture and uploaded it. XD Click to enlarge.




Hopefully this was a very entertaining post. XP

~Remula

So sometimes, I wish I was talented. You know what I'm talking about.. There are people in the world where everyone just say they're naturals and it was something they were born with. Now, sometimes I don't think it's true, 'cause seriously.. Even if you're born with a talent, you have to work with it or else it's not really a talent, ya know? Anywayz.. As I was saying.. I wish I had talent. In anything. I don't know.. I mean, some people just say I'm smart and whatever.. good at everything, but yeah.. I'm just general. I'm somewhat skilled in various things, but I don't have talent. There's nothing that really makes me stand out, you know? And I want to stand out. I really do. Except for when I'm in the spotlight, I feel awkward because yeah. Wanting to be the center of attention and being the center of attention are two VERY different things and I just don't know.

I wish I was just amazingly great at one thing. Something that's like, WOW, I can be known for that. I can do that and be the best. Or at least, as close to the best as I could be. ^_^;; But sadly, I'm not talented. And if I was, obviously I don't know what my talent is or I'd be workin' it with everything I had. Or something.

When I see famous people, sometimes I'm like, "Whoa, talent" and sometimes I'm like, "What the shit was that?" and yeah. Some famous people don't have talent at all, but they're still there and they're still in the limelight for their nontalent that is a talent even though I don't think so. XP And yeah.. It kinda makes me mad, you know?

When people are famous, it's like.. suddenly, they can do what they want. They might start off in a specific field, like TV star, and then branch out to movie star or singer or writer or fashion designer, etc.. And some people, they do it all. And it's like.. WTF, that's not fair, but they have the connections and connections make the world go 'round or something like that, so it is fair, in an unfair way. But I'm just saying..

Why do people like Paris Hilton get to write a book and be a TV star and be a singer and do all the other things they do? I mean, Paris isn't all that great. She's only known because she's the daughter of the guy who owns the Hilton chain and because she had a porn movie or whatever. And then suddenly, it's like whoa, she's everywhere. Suddenly it's all "that's hot". Suddenly, she has access ((not like she didn't before, but now people are paying more attention)) to do whatever the fuck she wants. And honestly, I haven't read her book, but I can feel that it sucks. I've heard her singing and yeah. I don't think she's all that great. I mean, I guess it's okay, but still. I'm sure there are plenty of people who can sing like that, but the point is that they aren't and the reason for that is not because they're not trying ((although that is sometimes the reason)), but because they just don't have the connections that all these hot-shots do.

Sometimes, I see famous people and even though I love them and think they're oh-so-great, I know that they aren't. No offense, but really.. For example, most singers aren't good singers. Doesn't mean I don't love their music, but that's just the jist of it. A lot of singers are not good singers when they have to go live. But that's just how it is. Doesn't mean people don't go to their concerts and stuff. It's just life. And yeah, those singers that aren't good singers aren't bad singers, but just average. But their music works for them and they sound good. So yeah..

I think that anyone can be a singer. They just need to find what they're good at singing. Like.. from my Panic! At The Disco kick that I'm on right now, I see people saying that Ryan Ross ((lyricist, guitarist, and back-up vocals for the band)) is a bad singer and that he should just stop. But, honestly, I think he has a good voice. And that's not because I'm obessed with him or whatever. Sure, sometimes he hits some sour notes, but still. He doesn't compare to Brendon ((singer)) because they just don't have the same type of voice. For Ryan, he has.. a more.. punk or rock or whatever voice.. Like the type that would be singing what me and aznearthdragon refer to as "angry music". But yeah.. Today I also read somewhere ((don't remember where)) that Ryan wants to sing more on their next CD and yeah. I'm looking forward to that because I love his voice. And yeah, his voice will definitely give songs a different feel, but that's okay. That's why people like different artists. My tastes jump around everything, so I'm sure it'll fit in with all my other songs. XP

I think Christina Aguilera has an amazing voice. I like her music and I love her voice and I think that she has an amazing voice live ((not that I've ever seen her live, but from the times I've seen it live on TV, it's hella good)). And yeah.. Though I love her singing, I don't really go rambling about it because.. well, because I like listening to angry music more often than not, even though those singers don't have such an awesome voice, lol.

...How did this post get to talking about singers?

Oh, that's right.. It could be that I sometimes have a secret but not so secret desire to be a singer. Yeah, that's me. Remember when I wrote about my goals wayyyy back when and how I wanted to be a one-hit wonder? Yeah. That stems from my secret-but-not-so-secret desire to be a singer. Because, I figure, I don't really know if I have the ability to be a singer, but would like to have a taste, so yeah. The point is, sometimes, I want to sing. Scratch that, I sing a lot already. XP I sing to everything, from hip-hop to pop to rock to whatever. As long as I kinda know the lyrics ((or if I don't, I make up something that sounds similar, haha)) and sing along. All the time. And I'm sure my brother and aznearthdragon are making fun of my craptastic voice most of the time, but honestly? Sometimes I think I sing some songs decently. =O Yeah, I know. Not like I have a big range and I can't hit really high notes, but still. Some songs suit me. Not like I know which ones, but yeah. I want to sing. But then again, I also want to do almost everything, so yeah. ^_^;;

Sometimes, I think I can be an actor. I mean, it's not all that hard and yeah. There are some horrible actors out there, but they're still there, so I figure, if they can do it, so can I. I've never really had experience acting, besides school plays, but that's more of a broadway type acting and I'm not really suited for that. I prefer acting in front of a camera because even though it's filmed and will be caught on tape forever, you don't have to do it live and die of embarrassment when you mess up. But knowing me, I'd still die in front of all those people on set.

I wish I could play an instrument. I played the violin briefly in fourth grade, but that's it. I don't remember if I was good or not, but I'm sure I could have been good if I continued with it.. But things happened and I didn't. I still love violins though and I get just a little happy when songs have violins in them. ^_^ It makes me even happier if there's a little violin solo thing going on. But I'm just saying. XP

Anyway.. I love instruments. I want to play a lot of them. That could be why I'm jealous of people who can play more than one. ^_^;; I wish I could play the violin, piano, guitar, bass, viola, cello, and drums. As you can see, I like string instruments. XP I would also like to play any other sting instrument out there too, like harp and instrument that Chinese people play in those movies ((can't remember what they're called right now)), but yeah. I don't do wind instruments though. I would like to play flute, but yeah. I've never really wanted to play a wind instrument, so even if I did get the chance to learn flute, I'd probably quit 'cause yeah. Wind instruments and me don't mix.

Okay, I'm totally straying off topic now. But yeah. At least it's related, so.. Sometimes, I wish I was talented...

~Remula

Woke up today and went walking.. x_x Went down the side trail again, haha. Got there and walked one round and had to walk down the backside and back 'cause our mom saw us coming around. x_x After that, went home and yeah.. it was hella hot. -_- ((Random Note: I haven't used that face in a while.. Hahaha. XP)) Anywayz.. Ate food and went on the computer.. Later on, went to Plaza Bonita.

Went to JC Penny first to shop for pants for my brother. Me and aznearthdragon getting a pair ((each)) from the boy's section -- cargo pants, as usual, haha. Boy's cargo pants are very comfortable and fit better than trying to buy girl's cargo pants ((they always end up being too freakin' long.. x_x)). Anywayz.. Brother got two pairs of cargo pants and then went and walked around the mall. I don't remember all the stores we visited, but went into the Disney Store and Papaya, among other places.. Would have visited more girl-y stores ((like Charlotte Russe and Forever 21)), but we've been banned from buying clothes by our parents. S'not like we ever buy stuff from those girl-y stores, but nothing wrong with looking, right? Parents don't think so though.. Anywayz.. after that, went back to JC Penny to buy brother two pairs of jeans and then left.

On the way home, went to go to Big Lots to check out tables or whatever.. Didn't get anything.. Went over to the bakery and got some bread, then finally went home. Of course, it was still hella hot.

Just read some P!ATD and MCR fics.. I'm so lame.. Gotta get off the band RPS, haha. Go back to my anime. XP

Oh yeah.. today our My Five plan was over or whatever since it's a new month and we didn't want it anymore. So my phone was all plain without a wallpaper, haha. I finally got one for it.. I just cropped a P!ATD picture so there was only Ryan and Brendon and stuck that on there. XP So yeah.. my phone now has a P!ATD wallpaper and AFI ringtones (("Endlessly, She Said" as my main one, "Prelude 12/21" for my parents, and "Silver and Cold" for bobbleheadvi)). There's also one Taking Back Sunday ringtone 'cause that's aznearthdragon's. XP

~Remula

So tired, but got up and walked.. Got to the park, but my eye was bugging me and stuff, so we just turned back..

My dad re-organized my stuff today. He's weird like that, haha.

I just read some fics today.. Boring, boring..

Found out it was Ryan Ross' birthday today, so..

Happy Birthday Ryan Ross!~

I think he's 20 now.. He's so hot, haha. XP

I'm bored.. And I don't feel like writing a good entry, as you can see..

Tomorrow's the VMAs. My favorites better win, haha.

Okay, I'm gonna stop now. Laterz.

~Remula