So class doesn't start until 9:00 today and yeah.. But I got up at 7:16 'cause I didn't want to sleep too late.. But I'm still so freakin' tired. =( Sucks ass.. I want more sleep! I can finally get more sleep on the weekend, but the weekend isn't coming fast enough.. *sigh* Come on, Wednesday. Speed it up! But yeah.. Imma hit up the library to scan my drawings after class. Then come back here, drop off stuff, eat, then attempt a bit on my English essay and try to look at some math. Then got math and English, then gotta work on my model and essay.. *sigh* Oh life... Why can't I get a break? =/ I'm really in need right now.. =/


~Remula

So this morning around 12:00 or whatever it was, I had another break down. x_x I was talking to bobbleheadvi and yeah.. It sucked. =( I hate crying and shit.. Stupid life.. It's so getting to me. I so want to get out, you know? I mean, damn, I don't know if I can handle five fuckin' years of all the work and stress and no sleep.. It just isn't for me.. =/

I didn't sleep well and I woke up too early and couldn't really fall asleep afterwards.. x_x At 9:00, aznearthdragon called me, but I couldn't get up 'cause I was too tired.. Tried to go back to sleep and was almost there and then I woke up again.. It was about 9:35 at that time, so I decided I should just get up and then aznearthdragon called again, so I figured it was really time to get up.

Got up and got ready, then went to eat breakfast. Sat with this girl in the other ARCH 131 class and her friend. After that, came back to my room and worked on my drawings. Started at 11:00 or so. Finished the first one I did at 2:40. x_x I don't even think it's right, but I don't care. After that, took a short break, then started the next one at 3:00 and finished around 5:20. Went to eat dinner, then came back and worked on the last drawing. Finished that one around 7:30 or whatever, then I cleaned up and scanned the drawings on trace paper. It was hard and didn't scan well and it sucked putting the pieces together 'cause they didn't work, haha. Took a while, but finally finished that, even though it was crappy and stuff, and then went to shower around 9:15.

Finished showering and yeah.. I haven't really done much after that. I'm not even gonna look at my drawings anymore.. I think I'll go to the library tomorrow and scan it and the section drawings from a while ago.. BLEH! I also have to take pictures of my box. Might do it tomorrow.. Who knows... And yeah.. Tomorrow, definitely doing as much as I can on my English essay 'cause won't have much time during the week to do it and it's due Friday, so...


I really should re-glue together my slip case, but I dunno if I will.. I mean, it's like, totally broken apart right now because I took off the top part so I could see and draw more easily, then some things fell off and I may have sat on some or leaned on it or whatever else and yeah.. ^_^;; But I dunno.. I think I'll probably just throw it all in a box and bring it on Monday.. It's not like he'll look at the old model, right? We're working on building our final model in class, so.. Hopefully he doesn't ask about my model 'cause it'll probably still be in pieces. XP

I'm really tired of everything right now.. I don't know. I don't feel up to doing anything.. And yeah.. So much to still do and I'm so stressed. I wish there was more time in the day to get everything done, but there isn't. And I don't really want to walk all the way to the library, you know? But it'll be such a hassle to scan on my scanner, since mine is smalll and the bristol board is 18x24, so.. Yeah. Better off to scan on the bigger scanner they have in the library.. I dunno what size scanner they have, but there has to be a bigger one than what I have..


I think I might just bring my illustration board and foam board outside and set up in the sun to take my pictures tomorrow.. It's Sunday, so most people should be busy and not walking by, right? XP

Have to do laundry tomorrow.. x_x I have so much.. *sigh* I was gonna do it today, but then I realized that the next time I'll do laundry after this weekend is on my birthday, 'cause I don't want to do it next weekend when I'm just going home a few days later.. It'd be lame to take home a bunch of dirty clothes, you know? So yeah...


People were smoking.. 'cause it smelt all smoky outside when I went out to shower.. =( It sucked 'cause I couldn't breathe the whole time and yeah.. When I came back, I closed my door so fast, so the smell wouldn't come in.. It still did a bit since you know the cracks along the door and stuff, but whatever.. Better than being out there..


Renaming files for the slip case project.. Better to do it now then do it later when I need to burn, haha.


~Remula

Last night, I had the best sleep since I've been here. OMG, it was soooo GOOD and it wasn't even much! But damn, it was like, I woke up to the alarm and I felt like I actually got REST. It was great. It's very sad that I'm excited about just feeling like I got a bit of sleep, but whatever.

Got up around 7:10.. Got read and left around 7:45. Got to school and met with my group at 8:00. Went to eat breakfast at VG's.. Just got a breakfast burrito.. After that, went back to SG and hung here until about 9:45, then walked back to school. Meet with the group, waited forever, got a picture, then went to the PAC for a diversity presentation. It was kinda boring.. Afterwards, we discussed it and OMFG, the stuff my group was saying was pissing me off. Everyone in my group that went to it was white except me, so that's where I'm coming from. Basically, they were talking all this shit about how we have to accept things that different and stuff.. And like, saying that the minority groups are bringing everything on themselves nowadays and how we keep bringing up the past and "why can't they just forget it and just look at now?" and shit like and I just wanted to slap the bitch girl who was saying most of the stuff! I mean, seriously, no offense or whatever, but who is she to talk that kind of shit? She's white and part of the majority, especially at Cal Poly. What right does she have to say that things are oh so much better or the minority and to say that we bring the shit ourselves? I mean, I guess some people do, but not everyone and it's not fair for her to talk shit like that. I mean, seriously. I was the only Asian person in the discussion.. The only minority in the discussion, and I didn't say anything 'cause I didn't want to be mean 'cause I'm SURE that if I opened my mouth at that time, something along the lines of, "WTS BITCH?! What do you know?!~" would come out and yeah.. But seriously. I don't even know how to explain my feelings, but whatever.. I mean, I wasn't extremely angry, but still.. What they were all saying just totally rubbed me the wrong way and yeah. I don't know. Pissed me off.

After that, people were going kayaking, but I decided not to go. Went back to SG and have been listening to music and catching up on some fics. That's about it. Later on, at 3:45, gotta meet my group and then we're going to the Block Party which is like Club Expo at Kearny. After that, there's an Everclear concert.. And that's about it.

~Remula

Slept in again today.. OMG, good sleep, hahaha. Got up at about 10:00. Ate food, watched some TV, and then went on the MTV and MTV2 website to check some VMA stuff.. Ended up going through a bunch of the behind the scene thingies on MTV. Gosh, I'm so lame, haaha. Oh wellz.. Besides that, read some fics, but that's about it. Didn't do much else..

I don't really feel like writing today.. BLEH!

It's so freakin' hot..

~Remula

Woke up today and was about to get ready, but our dad tells us to go back to sleep 'cause he has a runny nose and doesn't wanna walk or something. It kinda sucked 'cause I was kinda wide awake.. So yeah.. Called bobbleheadvi to bug him a little and then after that bugged aznearthdragon a little bit. She was all like, "I'm trying to end the conversation so I can sleep!" and so I stopped bugging her.. After that, was listening to the radio and was trying to sleep.. I think after it turned off, I fell asleep again.. Well, more like nodding off and on until about 10:00, when we finally got up.

Today, I have done a whole lot of nothing. Read some MCR and AFI fics and that's about it. Watched TV and listened to music, but other than that, a very non-productive day. XP

Selassie's orientation started today.. So she has successfully ((I assume, since I haven't talked to her yet)) moved into her dorm and is probably hanging out with her new-found friends ((she better have made some!)). XP If you don't remember, she's going to Point Loma Nazarene. I feel kinda bad for her since she orientation continues on to Monday and Monday's her first day of school.. How sucky is that? I still have another month, thank goodness. XP
On Saturday, me and aznearthdragon are going to her friend's BBQ. It's Krisky's thing, so there'll probably be a bunch of CTA people in her and aznearthdragon's grade. There might be some CTA people from my graduating class too since her sister, Kim, will be there too. Hopefully it won't be all the sucky seeing some of them after these past two months of their non-presence.

Next Wednesday, I have Jury Duty.. Ugh. Hopefully I won't get assigned to a case or whatever.. I'd perfer my time to be short and sweet. XP

~Remula