My day... Parents...

ROTC
Went to school on the bus... Damn, it's been a while... Anyway... We practiced for Field Day. That's about it.. was pretty boring. Then afterwards waited for BoBbleHeAd to walk me to class.

ALGEBRA
Had the test. I know I did good. =P But damn.. I didn't do the stupid summary assignment thing... And I skipped so many assignments on homework... *sigh* My grade's already slippin'... Oh wellz... I knew the lazyness was gonna catch up to me sooner or later... I can never keep on top of work given everyday.. =/ I didn't even have time to finish my English homework either.. *sigh*

LUNCH
Went to get lunch, for the first time in what seems like forever, lol. Then went back to hang out in the RO classroom. Hung with BoBbleHeAd the whole time. ^_^

ENGLISH
Had to work on writing the function part of a literary device or whatever... Sucked, 'cause I didn't know what to write... Do I ever..? No, I don't, lol... After that, started on my homework... sorta... but not really...

ARCHITECTURE
BoBbleHeAd walked me to class. In class, went on the computer, as usual. Had a sub... The computers kept shutting down.. then the sub called the tech peepz or whatever, and then he told us it was because of the Sasser Worm... Couldn't download the patch 'cause only the admin can do that... Mine shut down twice on me, so I was like, "Fuck this," and went to my seat. Did most of my English homework -- just have one more thing to do... Then I started reading Get Backers - Volume 01. Got up to Act 01, Part 02 before class was over. Was a pretty boring period.. =/ One interesting thing: Robert drank Dr. Pepper outta Saul's shoe for a dollar [from Mark]. Stupid pplz, lol. Was funny though. =P


Dun have that much homework... That's good, I guess...

I'm thinkin' about interviewing for a chain of command position for next year.. Yeah, I suck, but it's all good, right? It's better to try and fail then to not try and always wonder what if. That's my philosophy... I never tried for anything in middle school.. But I knew I could if I wanted to. Now that high school's here, I have to try, right? I did for CTA President, and somehow, I ended up gettin' it. =P Anyway... I dun know what to try for. Whatever it is, obviously there are WAY more qualified people than me for that position, but it's all good. Gonna try anyway, lol. Gotta get some more guts first though, lol. Anyway... gonna aim high. =P


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Damn.. last night was a bad night... And now... just a fuckin' continuation... Shit... I hate this fuckin' shit... Damn... No trust... there's never trust... Why do I even care what they think? I should care anymore, but damn... I do... and it fuckin' hurts everytime they say the shit they do... Everytime... everytime... Damn, I just wanna cry...

Everything they say... damn, is just a fuckin' contradiction. I trust you... I don't trust you... I love you, but I don't trust you... Damn... And I know they think that I'm a fuckin' screw up.. Everything I do is never enough for them. I get good grades -- so what? I get bad-ish grades -- Damn, I don't work fuckin' hard enough. I do school for myself, they say... get bad grades if you want, they say... and then, when it all comes down to it, everything I do isn't good enough.

Aren't they suppose to support me...? They're suppose to give encouragement -- you can do whatever you want if you try... right? But no, that's never it...

What do they really think about me? I fuckin' know... I'm a screw up. I'm lazy. I don't do shit. I don't care. I always get bad grades. I'm going to run away from home. And it's all true, isn't it? Of course it is. They think so, so it must be true. How could they be wrong?


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Forget this.. I don't want to cry anymore. I'm out.

~Remula