Oh Sunday.. Why must you suck?

Woke up around 7:00 or whatever it was 'cause aznearthdragon called me. x_x OMG, I didn't even sleep until 1:00 last night and yeah.. Sucked. Later on, around 8:00, bobbleheadvi called me. x_x That sucked too. x_x So yeah.. after that, got up and got ready, changed, and ate cereal -- Honey Bunches of Oats! XD Good stuff. After that, packed up my stuff, went online for a bit, then left my room around 9:50 or whatever.

Walked to the library and got there a bit after 10:00. Asked and found the CAD printing place on the second floor, but the girl said that no one would be there until 4:00, so yeah. x_x Went to the Pony Prints thing in the reading room and yeah. They said they didn't print my size 'cause mine is 22x8 and yeah.. they only do 11x17 or 12x18 as their biggest. x_x Valerie printed hers, then we went back to her room and just hung for a while. Then later on, started working on the weekly drawing thing.. I just drew her chair -- I'm so lame. I don't even think I did it right. x_x Oh well.. Did that, then just hung around. Later on, Marcela came and she scanned her analogs.. Just watched and then later went on Valerie's laptop for a while, then kinda attempted to work on my English essay, but I didn't know what to do. =/

Around 2:00, Marcela was leaving, so I decided to walk back with her, so left. Walked back to SG and went to my room and have been scanning stuff and organizing a little. That's about it. Later on, I gotta go back to Valerie's so we can go to the library and print my shit. I probably have to leave in about 10-15 minutes. x_x Hopefully the library printing won't take that long 'cause I don't want to spend forever there, ya know?

BLEHHHH! Life sucks.. I wanted to catch up on my sleep today, but no.. =/

More to say later on..

~Remula

OMFG STUPID LIBRARY! >O

Left around 3:50 to go to Valerie's place. Got there a little past four and she just woke up. Waited for her to get ready, then went to the library. It was like, 4:15-ish or something. OMFG, there were so many people there. x_x And the person who was suppose to come in for the printing wasn't even there yet! She didn't come until, like, 4:25. Had to sign a list for the order we'd print in and I ended up as number 19. Waited a while, sent my file to the printer, then waited some more. It was about 5:30 when I finally decided that I wasn't gonna wait anymore there 'cause yeah. They were at number six. x_x

Walked back to SG and went to eat dinner. Then went to my room, grabbed my jacket, then walked back to the library. Got there around 6:10 or whatever and yeah, they were only on 11. OMFG. Sucked so much. Waited around, then went outside and called aznearthdragon and bobbleheadvi, then later went back in and sat around waiting some more. How fun is that? >O Dumb thing.. Finally got mine printed around 7:17. It was printed with some other girl's, so had to cut it in half before I could go. Left the library at 7:20 and then walked home. Got here around 7:45, put down my stuff, then went to shower.

After showering, came back and cut my thing, but I wasn't really paying that much attention and I ended up cutting one side too short by .5". OMFG. So mad, but whatever. Can't fix it now and I don't care anymore.. *sigh* Dumb thing.. I hate this. Don't care if I get marked down for making the border too small. Whatever.. life sucks.


I still need to write my freakin' profile essay for English. OMFG. I'm so tired and I just wnat to sleep and stuff, but no. Fucking shit. >O


*sigh* Okay, gonna go now.. Lates.


~Remula

Fuck life..

OMG, I hate life. It just sucks so much. I mean, OMG.. It was like, I was just sitting here thinking and talking to aznearthdragon and later bobbleheadvi and just thinking and it's like.. I wanted to cry, and then when I was talking to bobbleheadvi about school, I just started crying. =(

It's like, I just hate everything. I mean, I have no time what-so-ever and I'm always stressed from the dumb ARCH projects and it's like WHEN WILL I EVER GET A BREAK?! And it's like, WTF, you know? I don't know.. I'm just so tired. And is it wrong of me to want more sleep? Is it wrong of me to want to do well? Is it wrong of me to just want to be able to get through life without all this hassle?

These past three weeks have been hell. I'm so freakin' busy and I don't know what to do. It's like, I want to do well in my classes, but at the same time, my English and math class just don't feel as important to me. It's like, so secondary to my major classes. I mean, I know, I KNOW I should be doing the work in them, but I just can't really seem to make myself think it's actually worth as much as my ARCH 131 class. It's like, the math homework, yeah, I do it and yeah, it's because it's defined and I know how much I have to do. For English, I'm totally slacking in that and even though I know I shouldn't think it, it's just not a priority to me. It's like, I leave English reading until the day we're suppose to read it, most of the time right before the class. I put off essays and I can't work on them at all and the first one I did, I totally didn't do it until the day before because OMFG, ARCH project was more important to me. And in my cover letter, I wrote that I had too much work 'cause yeah, I'm honest, and yes, that's an excuse, but I don't care. It was true because no, that week WASN'T enough time for me to get to it because I had my ARCH project to do. And no, it wasn't important enough to contemplate before the day it was due. And yes, I regreted it and yes, I knew it was bad quality which was probably why I got a 4 on it ((roughly translates to a D+)) and it's like, OMG, I know it sucked, but damn, that's the first D I ever got and I know it was my fault, but I can't help it. I'm just so tired of this shit. And now, there's the rough draft of the profile essay due and I know I probably won't get it done until Wednesday, the day before we're peer editing. And it's like, fuck, I never wanted to be that person, but I am, and I don't know how to handle it because I've always written my English essays with time on my hands. I've never done the whole procrastination thing and churned it out the day before until the first paper for English this year and yeah, I can't be that person, I suck at being that person, but that's just how it looks like it's gonna be from now on because projects everyday and yeah. It's stressful. Yeah, it sucks. And yeah, I really need a break.

I hate how I have to waste so much time and effort just for architecture. It's like, I wasted all of today 'cause I needed to print and it's like, WTF, I want to go do other things, ya know? I don't just want to do ARCH stuff. I want to just be. I want to have time to do things if I want. I want to be able to sit in my room and read fics and just be. I just want to relax for once, but I haven't gotten that chance since I've started school. It's like, constant projects, constrantly busy. I just want some me time. I just want to be able to sleep on the weekends without having to be somewhere or having to do something. I want to read my fics and now have to worry that I'm slacking on a project 'cause I'm taking that ten minute break to read a bit. I hate knowing that I'm taking breaks, even though I need it, just to get some fic reading in. I hate going to take a shower 'cause that means I don't have as much time to do my other homework. I hate having to go shopping for supplies 'cause there's more time wasted. I hate going to eat dinner 'cause I could be working. And I shouldn't be hating these things. I actually LOVE these things. They're my breaks, they're to get away, but at the same time, it's taking my WORK time away and sometimes, you just need it all, even if you don't want to work.

I hate how architecture drains all my money. In the past three weeks ((and we'll include the day I spent during the summer buying all my drawing stuff)), I've spent well over $500. The drawing equipment alone cost around $200. Then I had to buy the books for the class, the other supplies we've been needing for all the projects and it's just like, damn, WTF. And soon, I'll be buying my Amtrak tickets for the field trip to LA and possibly spending money on a room if I'm too far away from family and it's just like, OMG, my weekend, my money, my time, all being taken for architecture. And, you know, it just sucks.

I can't wait until it's Thanksgiving 'cause then I can go home. It'll suck 'cause I'll most likely have a project or something to do, but still. HOME. I miss it so much.

What I really can't wait for is WINTER BREAK. OMG, winter break. Eight more weeks.. ((This was the thought that was getting me crying.)) Eight more weeks.. Eight more weeks.. Eight weeks have never felt so long before. But it is.. It SO is. There'll be finals, then there will be WINTER BREAK and I can go HOME and REST for THREE STRAIGHT WEEKS and won't have any homework or projects to do.. AT ALL and it'll be so freakin' great and I might possibly die from the excitement of those THREE WEEEKS of pure NOTHINGNESS. I mean, seriously. I get to see my family, possibly some of my friends, and I'll have TIME TO SLEEP AND RELAX and I NEVER GET THAT.

I hate how dramatic I'm sounding, but seriously, the stress is really getting to me. I'm just so tired of architorture and I don't know.. It's just like, WTF, when will we get a break? When? I just want ONE DAY, just ONE, where I don't have to worry that a project is due. I just want ONE DAY where I can actually get sleep. ONE DAY when my whole week isn't jammed pack.

I just want one Tuesday where I can actually have those five hours for ME and not for any other class. Just one Saturday when I'm not at school. One Sunday when I don't have homework to do. One weekend when I can just DO WHAT I WANT and not have to worry that OMFG, project due Monday!

Is that too much to ask?

Apparently it is because the chances of that happening are slim to none. =/

I've spent over 30 minutes writing this entry and I was planning to sleep early too, but this is pretty early compared to what I've been getting. =/ But yeah, I just needed to vent. I feel a little better, but still.. Just ONE day. When will I get my day? =(

~Remula