So tired..

MORNING:
So I had a dream where I was in my suite, but it wasn't, and my suitemates were there, and some stuff happened and I was in bed and I looked at the clock and it read 8:43 and I was like, to my suitemates, "Oh, I don't have to get up 'cause class doesn't even start until 9:00" but after I said that, it sounded weird and I thought for a second and realized it was because, HELLO, I don't HAVE any classes that start at 9:00! And it was Friday in my dream, so I was like, "Wait a minute.. SHIT! Class started at 8:00!" and I ran out of the room to get ready and I tried to go to school, but it was taking forever and I forgot my shit and yeah.. Bad stuff. Then I woke up and it was really 6:20 (real time) and I was all freaked and tired and it sucked ass. And yeah.. When I finally had to get up, I was so drained. Bags under my eyes, didn't really feel like I was functioning, half-awake status. It sucked. x_x

I got ready and ate a granola bar and then just sat around and attempted to read, but didn't get far 'cause I was tired as fuck and couldn't concentrate.. And I was really wondering what the fuck I was doing up when I didn't even feel up to functioning.. x_x


ARCHITECTURE 131
So I brought my drawing board with my to class and yeah.. In the end, I didn't do jack shit. Seriously. Nothing. Nada. Zip. Zilch. Must I go on? The point is, I wasted away FOUR HOURS doing nothing. My drawings were wrong, but I didn't bring my model, so I couldn't fix them. They didn't tell us the layout for the final drawings, so couldn't start that. So yeah.. Class consisted of me sitting and doing nothing while watching some other people work and occasionally listening into conversations. Later on, Keith came over to sit next to me to talk 'cause no one was near him and he had nothing to do either. So we talked about the math test and random stuff and later, was listening to him talk to some other people, then me, him, and Ashley were talking about SD stuff and yeah.. He's leaving early Thursday morning, so can't get a ride from him. =/ But yeah.. Basically, no productivity at all. x_x

Around 11:00, went down to look at the fifth (?) year projects they were setting up. They looked really complex and stuff.. And hard.. And a lot of fuckin' work. It was kinda interesting..

After that, went to Brent's room and they showed us the layout for the drawings. Basically, they're all on one sheet of bristol and we only have to do the orthographic views. But yeah.. it'll take for-fuckin'-ever to do it all. I know it will 'cause I was struggling to do my drawings WRONG on the trace paper. That's how hard it is. Damn 3-D hard things.. I should have been smart about it and made something that would draw easy. *sigh*

Drawings due on Monday.. Bring modeling supplies 'cause we're starting on the models on Monday. BLEH!~


BREAK
Went home and dropped off stuff, then went to eat lunch. After eating, came back and basically did nothing 'cause I was tired as fuck and didn't want to do shit. I think I spent a while just dazed off. It was kinda sad, you know? =/


ENGLISH 134
Watched Bowling for Columbine. Didn't finish it.. BLEH! But it's in interesting video..


AFTERWARDS
Went home and didn't do anything for a bit, then worked on the analysis thing for Bowling for Columbine. Somehow, it took me longer than expected to finish that. I think it was the combination of me not having any writing abilities anymore, my tired semi-coherent-ness towards work, and my attitude of whatever-ness.

After I finished that, I went to shower and then came back at 8:30 and figured out the layout of my final drawings of the slip case. After that, it was 9:00 and went on the TV to see what was on and saw some skating. There was this black girl ((and that's really weird 'cause you don't normally see black figure skaters, you know?)) and she was REALLY good and she did a bunch of split jumps that were AWESOMELY high and, at the end, she did a backflip! OMG. Totally awesomeness! Too bad she didn't win against the other girl. =/

I gave up on watching figure skating after a while and had the urge to watch the Corbin Bleu MV for "Push It To The Limit" and then I had the urge to look up the movie that it's for and it sounds so awesome and I totally want to watch Jump It! now! And it comes out in January on Disney. And I don't have Disney. ;_; So sad.. ;_; I also found out from my explorations that there's gonna be a High School Musical 2 and I think it's probably gonna suck ass. =/

Talked to aznearthdragon and showed her my findings.. Then for some reason, I was on the Zac Efron website and looking at his bio and stuff 'cause I had nothing better to do ((I do, but you know work sucks..)) and yeah. 4.3GPA and he applied for UCLA and USC and according to Wiki ((not as reliable a source)), he got into both and is going to USC. On his website, it says he would go to USC if he got into both and I assume he did, so I guess it can be believable.. But yeah, me and aznearthdragon were saying, "Why can't he go to UCSD?! Or Cal Poly?!" 'cause we want to see him in real life just to see what he's REALLY like, haha. 'Cause, you know, we don't really like him all that much, but you never know.. maybe he's cool? Haha.


So yeah..

I'm tired as fuck. I want sleep. The drawings for ARCH 131 will take more than enough of my weekend. I haven't started my English essay. Life sucks.

Apparently it doesn't suck as much as Caleb's life though, 'cause I went to his xanga ((yeah, I'm a stalker. Sue me.)) and he posted today and yeah. I'll just copy and paste this part..

this week was hell

sunday: a few hrs nap in the car... in that 8 hr car ride... traffic was crazy
sunday night: slept at 6:30am
monday: 3 hr nap
monday night: 3:00am
tuesday: 1 hr nap
tuesday night: 4:30am
wednesday: 1 hr nap
wednesday night: 6:30 am
thursday: half hr nap
thursday night: 7:00 am

So yeah, WTF! I mean, I'd die if I had only that much sleep in a week. x_x And he didn't come to class today, but I totally understand, with that sleep schedule.. I'd totally pass out and not go to class either. But it's not like he missed anything, so yeah..

Anywayz... I have a lot to do this weekend. Oh joys of joy.


WEEKEND TO-DO LIST:
- Three Orthographic Drawings for ARCH 131
- English Essay

Okay, it doesn't look like much, but trust me, it IS.


Next week will be fuckin' HELL. I mean, it already started with the weekend, but damn..


WEEK TO-DO LIST:
- Slip Case Drawings [Monday]
- Archival Box Documentation [Thursday]
- Final Slip Case Model [Friday]
- English Essay [Friday]


Gotta do the drawings this weekend ((obviously)). Starting final slip case on Monday in class. Taking pictures on Tuesday, no matter what. I dunno where or how, but it's happening. Printing, binding, and CD will be done by Tuesday night, no matter what! Dunno when I'm writing that English essay, but it's gotta happen! Must scan drawings and shit, probably on Monday, but gotta have that done by Wednesday. Might be dying on Thursday night. Keep me in your mind 'cause I dunno if I'll have time for life at all this upcoming week. Freakin' Dead Week. I'll make time to post quickly though. It'll probably be the quick couple sentences every once in a while when I'm taking my short breaks, so don't expect one long normal entry. Won't have time for that, you know?


Found out that aznearthdragon is Battalion Commander now and that Martinez was fired. It's so whack though 'cause SGM said he talked to Martinez, but then Victoria said that he didn't even know and if she didn't tell him, he wouldn't have known! WTF! So messed. And it's like, she still has to do XO stuff, so it's even more whack. WTF. My poor baby aznearthdragon. She says she's stressed, but she doesn't know what stressed is. Even so, I still feel bad for my baby 'cause she has to do everything. I mean, seriously! BC, XO, UDT CDR, CG CDR, and now, SQD and PLT, most likely PLT CDR. Fuckin' sucks ass. My poor girl. =(


Apparently, a lot of people wanted to go to USC, but couldn't afford it. A bunch of them applied and got in, but didn't have the money to go. @_@ That's interesting, I guess.. But, I mean, why even apply when you KNOW you can't afford it? I mean, did they seriously think they'd get a lot of money from the school so they could go? @_@ But that's just my take on it... To each their own, I guess. They only liked it 'cause USC kept sending them stuff.. 'Cause they're a private school, so they can afford to send brochures and booklets and all that..


I'm really tired right now.. I wasn't really before, but now I'm feeling it again. I mean, I was dead last night from tiredness.. And then sometime in the afternoon, I kinda woke up? And I didn't feel any fatigue at all, but now it's coming back with a vengeance. x_x Fuckin' tiredness..

Only seven more days until classes are over.. And just six more days of torture, but I dunno if I can last, you know? I just don't have the energy anymore.. It's like, fuck. WTF.


I don't know what I'm doing here at all. Architecture is so not for me. But I don't even know where to go, you know? I'm just, like, dying from the work and it's only gonna get worse and I dunno. I want to be smart enough to get out, but I dunno where to go. I just can't take it anymore. I don't know. I need a lifetime break or something. I need easy classes. I need stability and structure. I can't get that with architecture and yet I'm staying with it. Why? =(


Come on, life.. Move a little faster so school can be over and I can relax! I'm not worried about my finals! I just need to get pass Dead Week! Then I can rest VERY WELL on Friday night and sleep in until I wake naturally on the 9th and yeah. Shopping or something those days until my final on my birthday, haha. Then home sweet home.. Can't wait.. Just move faster, time. Except for when I'm working on my drawings and stuff. Go slower then so I can actually finish and get rest.


Okay, gonna brush teeth now and go sleepy-sleepy 'cause I need to wake tomorrow and kill myself drawing. Keep me fresh in your minds.. I might not survive for you to see me again. x_x


~Remula