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Repuations and Expectations
Aug. 15th, 2006 09:05 pmSo.. expectations.. What is there to say but that they suck ass? I mean, if you're nice, people expect you to be courteous to everyone, even assholes. If you're quiet, they all assume you're shy or hate people or you wanna be left alone and they act accordingly. Etc, etc, etc.. I dunno what I'm trying to say, since I'm kinda distracted by the TV right now, but yeah.. Expectations piss me off 'cause it's hard to live up to them ((if they're good)) and it's hard to move beyond them ((whether they're good or bad)). They're like reputations.. Seemingly inescapable and all.
I know that from my time at school, I've gained a very.. bland reputation, both from middle school and high school. Although the people from school were completely different, I managed to gain basically the same one at each school. ((Basically, with that statement, I'm trying to say that even if you move somewhere else, it's hard to change how you are. I'll get to this a little later on..)) I know that people think of me as smart and a goody-goody. There are also people who think that I'm evil, but not the evil-evil.. more like.. playful evil or something. I don't know if you'll get what I'm trying to say, but yeah.. There are many examples that prove these things.. Getting good grades will automatically get to you placed as smart and ((usually)) goody-goody. Being awarded "Most Likely to Take Over the World" by your teachers ((and having all your peers think it is hysterically accurate)) goes with that evil thing. There's more, of course, but my brain will hurt from trying too hard, haha. XP
But yeah.. What was the point of that...? Hmm.. Well, I think what I'm trying to say is that all these people have expectations outta me. I know they think I'm gonna be something and I'm gonna be somewhere and that I'll matter, but it's just so.. URGH! knowing that 'cause what if I DON'T amount to that? I don't mean to be annoying and stuff, but realistically.. I don't think I'm gonna be something great. I wish I was, but it's rare. I'll probably end up in some medicore job hating my life.. But that's how life is..
Damnit, I'm just rambling. I don't even know what to write anymore. Dumb Miss Teen USA. Shows like that are so addicting in their lameness.. But I can't help it.. I think I'll go back to this topic another day so it'll actually make sense.
Tomorrow's topic.. Famous people.
~Remula
I know that from my time at school, I've gained a very.. bland reputation, both from middle school and high school. Although the people from school were completely different, I managed to gain basically the same one at each school. ((Basically, with that statement, I'm trying to say that even if you move somewhere else, it's hard to change how you are. I'll get to this a little later on..)) I know that people think of me as smart and a goody-goody. There are also people who think that I'm evil, but not the evil-evil.. more like.. playful evil or something. I don't know if you'll get what I'm trying to say, but yeah.. There are many examples that prove these things.. Getting good grades will automatically get to you placed as smart and ((usually)) goody-goody. Being awarded "Most Likely to Take Over the World" by your teachers ((and having all your peers think it is hysterically accurate)) goes with that evil thing. There's more, of course, but my brain will hurt from trying too hard, haha. XP
But yeah.. What was the point of that...? Hmm.. Well, I think what I'm trying to say is that all these people have expectations outta me. I know they think I'm gonna be something and I'm gonna be somewhere and that I'll matter, but it's just so.. URGH! knowing that 'cause what if I DON'T amount to that? I don't mean to be annoying and stuff, but realistically.. I don't think I'm gonna be something great. I wish I was, but it's rare. I'll probably end up in some medicore job hating my life.. But that's how life is..
Damnit, I'm just rambling. I don't even know what to write anymore. Dumb Miss Teen USA. Shows like that are so addicting in their lameness.. But I can't help it.. I think I'll go back to this topic another day so it'll actually make sense.
Tomorrow's topic.. Famous people.
~Remula
